Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Stubbornness, Pigheadedness and all those things

A few posts back I talked about the whole character issue I'm having and on this road of discovery, I've noticed that I can be a bit... stubborn.

Or maybe hard headed?

I think they are the same thing really.

But I have it.

My head is hard, my stubbornness is annoying and an overall bad trait.

I admit this fully.

I tend not to listen to what people tell me and hear only what I want to hear (sometimes I call it selective hearing and with kids it's a must).

I don't like this trait. I don't like that I ignore some of the most important words I need to hear.

I'm trying to change this.

Especially because I can't change how others view me or how the world revolves. I'm working on accepting that there's a plan for me and I can't really do much to change it, just to enjoy the ride and take the fruits of its (and my) labors.

I also need to accept that I can't always get things my way, that sometimes my way isn't the best way and that I need to do what's best for my family.

This challenge has been hard, I won't lie. I'll do great for a day or two and then I'll break down and revert to old ways... like a bully.

And being a bullied sucks, I know this first hand.

So it changes.

From this moment on, I am doing my part to be a better person.

Any advice?

1 comment:

ConnieFoggles said...

You've recognized that you want to change - the first step. If you can't do it on your own, I'd see a therapist for help. I wish you well!