A few posts back I talked about the whole character issue I'm having and on this road of discovery, I've noticed that I can be a bit... stubborn.
Or maybe hard headed?
I think they are the same thing really.
But I have it.
My head is hard, my stubbornness is annoying and an overall bad trait.
I admit this fully.
I tend not to listen to what people tell me and hear only what I want to hear (sometimes I call it selective hearing and with kids it's a must).
I don't like this trait. I don't like that I ignore some of the most important words I need to hear.
I'm trying to change this.
Especially because I can't change how others view me or how the world revolves. I'm working on accepting that there's a plan for me and I can't really do much to change it, just to enjoy the ride and take the fruits of its (and my) labors.
I also need to accept that I can't always get things my way, that sometimes my way isn't the best way and that I need to do what's best for my family.
This challenge has been hard, I won't lie. I'll do great for a day or two and then I'll break down and revert to old ways... like a bully.
And being a bullied sucks, I know this first hand.
So it changes.
From this moment on, I am doing my part to be a better person.
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