Motherhood is Hard

It really is no secret that being a mother is hard.

Unless you have no children and you have no idea what I'm talking about.

I use to be like that.

I was pregnant with Roo and I imagined perfect days with a beautiful smelling baby that slept and ate and smiled at me all day long.

How wrong was I?

I ended up with a beautiful baby that smelt like poop, ate all day and night and never slept.

And while four years later I have a better understanding of what I'm doing (she is still beautiful, doesn't smell, and while she sleeps like a champ she still eats all day if I let her), I still am having a hard time.

And the thing that sucks is that society tells me: You wanted to be a Mom so suck it up.

While I can suck it up, I still feel like I have the right to say: I am exhausted, this is hard, this is not easy.

Because it's not and I am.

I am exhausted.

It is hard.

It is not easy.

But that doesn't mean that being a parent isn't rewarding.

It is.

But those rewards are small and when they do come around, it makes you forget how tired you are and how much your child will not sleep.

I just wish society would give me some slack. I wish that society would say that I am doing the best I can and that they understand.

Society sucks for me today.