It really is no secret that being a mother is hard.
Unless you have no children and you have no idea what I'm talking about.
I use to be like that.
I was pregnant with Roo and I imagined perfect days with a beautiful smelling baby that slept and ate and smiled at me all day long.
How wrong was I?
I ended up with a beautiful baby that smelt like poop, ate all day and night and never slept.
And while four years later I have a better understanding of what I'm doing (she is still beautiful, doesn't smell, and while she sleeps like a champ she still eats all day if I let her), I still am having a hard time.
And the thing that sucks is that society tells me: You wanted to be a Mom so suck it up.
While I can suck it up, I still feel like I have the right to say: I am exhausted, this is hard, this is not easy.
Because it's not and I am.
I am exhausted.
It is hard.
It is not easy.
But that doesn't mean that being a parent isn't rewarding.
But those rewards are small and when they do come around, it makes you forget how tired you are and how much your child will not sleep.
I just wish society would give me some slack. I wish that society would say that I am doing the best I can and that they understand.
Society sucks for me today.
19 minutes ago