I am still dealing with certain family drama and I'm not really sure that I'm handling it properly.
Only because the other day I took out my frustration with my family drama on my child by threatening to throw all her toys away (in my defense, the kid has tons of toys).
That threat (obviously hollow) led to her freaking out on me and her having a major temper tantrum (something she rarely does, but that's a whole different blog post).
As she's crying in my arms, I realized that the whole thing was my fault because I was directing all that frustration in the wrong direction, leading me to feel like the shittiest parent on the earth.
Now, I'm sure I'm not the only parent that has ever done this, or the last.
But it shocked me to my core.
I was mortified as I retold my husband the details of the event.
And it made me stop and remember that my daughter never deserves any of my frustration.
And even though this family drama is far from over, I am doing everything in my power to stop, take a calm breath and remember how lucky I am. That my kids did not cause any of this drama, therefore do not need to deal with it.
So what I do is separate myself from the person who is upset about family drama and remember to be the mother who is loving, supportive and gives tons of hugs.
And that I have the best kids in the world and deserve the best Mom in the world.
6 hours ago