Sunday, November 28, 2010

Sticky

Sometimes glue is a great thing.

It bonds things together. It makes things tight and snug.

Other times, it's sticky.

Really sticky.

And messy and annoying and makes your fingers tacky and gray.

Sometimes in a tough situation glue can make things better and sometimes it makes the whole thing a disaster.

I hate being the glue sometimes.

I am the glue in my family (not my immediate family... wait, I am but that's a whole 'nother blog post. This blog post is about my family family).

My family is divided and it sucks.

Two sides are pitted against one another and while one side is waving the white flag, the other is ignoring the gesture.

And I'm in the middle.

I'm the glue in the middle of the ring screaming at the top of my lungs.

I'm the glue that wants to wrap this entire family is its stickiness and have a big group hug.

I'm the glue that is doubled over in guilt and anxiety because my family is not whole.

I'm the glue that is crying tears.

What in the world can fix a broken family if the glue is all soggy?

7 comments:

Carrie with Children said...

Sounds like some rough times. Thinking of you!!

Anonymous said...

I feel the same. Next time try staples?!
<3 ya and keep your head up.

Erika said...

I'm sorry you are going through this.

Ginger said...

Been there, and sorry you're there too.

During my college years it got so bad I had to take a step back, because it got unhealthy. It is hard to play that role, so make sure you are taking care of YOU too.

Hope that makes sense.

:)

melissa said...

i'm so sorry that things are rough right now. especially with the holiday season, it makes it more difficult.

Jessica R. said...

Aw, I'm so sorry. Maybe it's time for the glue to take a break and walk away for a bit to take care of herself and her needs.
It's hard sometimes being the only one who seems to care.
Hang in there!

Christina - reformed glue said...

I have to agree... Sometimes the glue needs to stop being the glue because if both sides can't agree there is nothing the glue can do. So take care of you and your immediate family and let the unsticky parts of the extended family work it out themselves. If they don't then it is their loss.