Today's trip to the Y was successful...well, successful for Roo, not so much for me.
I got all signed in and took her to the "Child Development" area and signed her in. She didn't even look back at me.
She only had eyes for toys.
Me, I was gripping the door frame trying not to cry.
There was a younger girl that understood my hesitance and answered my questions as I watched Roo play. There was an older lady that tried to push me out the door but I wouldn't budge.
I have to admit, my heart was breaking. My girl is so grown up. When the hell did this happen?
Finally, I slinked out the door and went to work out. I held back my tears and ran a mile on the treadmill before sneaking back to the glass windows to peek at her.
She was right at home, playing and being social. I was so proud of her.
I let her play for thirty minutes total, telling myself I couldn't stand to be away from her for a second longer.
And when I went to get her, she ignored me!
She continued to play and the only way I got out of there was by bribing her with the pool.
Maybe tomorrow when we go it'll be better for me. Maybe I'll make it to forty-five minutes? Or maybe I'll never go back and keep my daughter all to myself forever?
:)
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It will get easier, I promise! This is good for both of you. :)
Yes, it will get easier. I know exactly how you feel. :) Hubby wants to do a weekend away sans baby but I just can't bring myself to be away from Miky overnight any time soon.
Altho I dont have a little one... I am sure someday I'll understand.
You're a good mom.
You got a workout
and she got some fun time.
:) here's hoping tomorrow's a little better for you!
Wait until you have #2 - then you'll want to double your time away from them. Hard to believe now, but it's true!
Wow! That's pretty amazing! She must be a well-loved and confident child in order to do that her first time around! Good job for raising her to know she is so loved that you will come back for her!
I'm glad she had fun. As hard as it was to leave her, it might have been even harder had she cried. (Like Parker used to do all the time - oh the heartache!)
Chill out, she's not grown up yet. Wait 'til she buys her first Pearl Jam CD and starts hanging out with some blonde girl she met on a bus :)
I dont belong now- but I used to belong to NTC- only to put my kid in the daycare and sit outside the door and read a magazine- eat my lunch and/or shower on a daily basis- it was great. They used to laugh at me because I never actually worked out (we swam alot) but hey- I dont like to leave my kid- and I needed some mommytime :)
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