I've struggled for a while now on the issue of censorship and my blog.
I've always believed that my blog is my place of release, that I can sign up and post about anything I want. Whether my posts be about my damn dog or my love for my baby, I would let it all flow out on this page.
Recently, I've had two situations that I haven't posted about because I was worried about who would read it and how I would offend them. I've kept these thoughts and feelings inside and lately it seems like they are going to burst forth from me and blow chunks all over my computer screen.
I've even wrote out the posts where I lash out about these relationships numerous times only to delete them.
I've asked everyone I know what they think. I've posted questions on blog boards, consulted Mr. Me, weighed the pros and cons and I still come up empty.
The small part in the back of my mind knows that if I post about these things, I will forever alter my relationships with these people. Once I post these posts and say these things, I can never take them back. They will forever be in the blog-o-sphere.
Then there's that part of me that bucks against censorship.... that part of me that says the c-word, that wants to express how I truly feel. The part of me that wants the truth to be known (and it is truth).... the part of me that doesn't give a fuck.
But I don't.
I don't post.
I keep it inside and I will, until it kills me.
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8 comments:
i think one of the things people love about you is your honesty. if you want to share it, do it. people who can't handle it shouldn't be in your life, b/c real life isn't always funny or pretty.
i say be honest with yourself, it's your blog...i love reading it whether it's rant or rave!
My long ass comment is going in an e-mail. :)
I know how you feel, but you should let it out.
Or email me with your vent! I am a good listener!
I saw let it out! Those who truly love you will not care, and those that care don't truly love you!
I do the same thing. Don't bury it, though! That's bad!
I have done both before with mixed results. I hold back and I am relieved. I put forth and readers respond well to the honesty, but I second guess myself for writing about other people who might feel hurt if they read the post. Though I have to say the heartfelt posts, the ones where I dig deep, give me the most personal satisfaction.
I'd rather not post something if I'm not sure of it, though, than wish I could take my words back. Even when I delete them, usually some people would already have read them. But that's just me.
Great post, SuZ.
I'm realizing that you're bound to offend SOMEONE. If they can't handle it, oh well. I guess I would draw the line at being downright mean to someone, but seriously, it's your blog...your release. A recent post of mine started a firestorm amongst a couple of readers. Oh well. Don't like what I have to say? Don't read it.
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