Occasionally, I get "uncomfortable" when breast-feeding. And when I say occasionally, I mean it's only happened five times in the last 20 months.
And when I say "uncomfortable" I mean, I get antsy when she nurses. I get this odd feeling, like I have to get her off my boob in record time or I get squeamish. My stomach gets nervous and jumpy, like I'm having an anxiety attack.
Does that make any sense?
I always feel so guilty when this happens, but I can't help it. It comes out of no-where, blindsides me that a brickwall. I am so caught off guard that I don't know how to handle it. My whole body feels it and I find myself tapping my toes and twiddling my fingers to distract myself from the feeling.
I have no idea what this means and since it's only happened five times out of the last trillion times I've nursed her, I never thought to ask my doctor.
Or maybe I never asked (or told anyone this) b/c I'm embarrassed. Embarrassed that my beautiful little daughter could cause such turmoil in me.
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