As we pulled out of the driveway, a heart-wrenching fervor broke out and tears filled my eyes. I turned to look at my husband and told him in a whisper, "I don't think I can do this."
Friday night we did something we hadn't done in 18 1/2 months, we went on a date. Alone, without our daughter. We left her in the very capable hands of her godmother so there were no worries. Just the worries of a mother who is very attached to her girl and feels lost without her.
At first my husband and I were short-tempered towards one another and a bit confused about how to function without our team-mate. During dinner, we couldn't help but notice the other kids at the restaurant and we felt sad. We nursed our wounds with stories of how cute Roo was and admitted how much we felt like a ship lost at sea without our navigator.
It was very tempting to head straight home after dinner (which we ate faster than we've ever eaten dinner before). But I was determined, determined to prove I could do this. So we wandered around aimlessly. We walked around the park we went to on our first date over 10 years ago. We raced each other on go-carts and ended up at the art center where we got married.
Iadmit, it was a hard night for me, but I enjoyed spending time with my husband. I enjoyed reconnecting with him. It was fun remembering who we use to be, and who we are now.
But I have to admit, as soon as we could, we rushed home to our daughter. :)
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Awe! I remember the first time we left Ally. We did it for an entire weekend though. I lost it in the car after we dropped her off. It gets easier and you do need that alone time with your spouse. And, I'm sure Roo had a wonderful time!!
The experts say that date night is essential to keeping the marriage alive and even say not to talk about your child on the date. As bad as we were feeling that first time, that's all we did. So, we flunked the expert date night too. But, we lived to tell about so, I guess the experts don't know everthing.
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I'm glad you were able to reconnect with your hubby. Isn't it amazing to look back at your life before you had a child and realize you don't even know the person you used to be. Life changes so quickly!
I totally co-sleep with my daughter too. I have never confessed that to anyone before... my mom and mother-in-law would kill me and sisters-in-law mock me behind my back I'm sure! I'm glad to confess to someone who understands I just can't be apart from my baby girl.
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Even though it's hard, you guys definitely need to keep it up. Spending time just the two of you is essential! :)
Oh, I've been there! Well, I guess in a sense I kind of still am "there" as my daughter is now almost 5 and a half (that'd be years, not months) and I have yet to spend an entire night away from her. Both of my sisters left their kids with our parents for a long weekend plus (bet 3 and 5 nights each) when their first kids were less than 6 months old and their second kids were less than THREE months old. I honestly don't know how they did it. They couldn't wait to get away from their kids - I would be heartbroken without mine for so long!
I'll get back to you on the topic in another few years when she's a tween/teenager - I have a feeling I might just feel differently about it by then! ;)
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